I just had my regroup with Dr. S. Here's a quick summary of what we discussed:
1) I told him that I was inclined to go to FET with 2 normals, and asked if he agreed with that approach. He did, although he said it would be "nice" to have more embryos. But he also said that this might work and save us having to do another retrieval so we should try.
2) I asked him how many he thought we should transfer. He said definitely transfer both - he thinks there is a much higher risk that I won't get pregnant at all given my history than me having multiples. This was kind of sobering to hear, but not surprising. Given how strongly he felt about this I think I will transfer both and hope for the best.
3) I asked him about BCP or no BCP and he said it doesn't matter, it's just for scheduling purposes. I think I will do BCP because the scheduling is kind of a hassle.
4) Lastly, I asked him what he thought our chances of success were. He said this was really difficult, because I was so "off the charts" (meaning I had an off the charts bad history with my prior two IVF cycles). Acknowledging that it was a total shot in the dark guess, he gave me a 35% chance of success. Not great, but who the hell knows - it could be an 11% chance, it could be 50%. Doesn't change anything in terms of the approach.
Following the call, I'm feeling less confident and much more nervous. I was riding high after getting my results, but this brought me back down to earth. I have to remember there's still a much higher chance that this won't work than the other way around.
I can only hope and pray for a miracle. Man, this is going to be a long 2 months! I'm just glad I have some good company (all of you wonderful ladies) to keep me sane along the way. Don't you go anywhere peoples, I need ya!