The Not-So-Sexy Infertility Adventures of a Girl in the Big Apple

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Planning for Plan B

First of all, just want to thank all of you ladies for the recommendations on yoga videos.  I bought 2 Shiva Rea videos, and am liking them a lot (although I will never be able to do half the poses the way she does!)  I also bought Circle & Bloom's IVF cycle meditations (thanks Chon!), and am really enjoying those.

This past week I have been doing a fair amount of thinking and planning for Plan B in the event that this FET doesn't work.  I had a long talk with H about this on the way home from our upstate house this weekend.  I asked him whether he would want to try one last time with my eggs, and what he felt about moving to donor eggs.  I told him that my inclination was to try one more time with my eggs, but do a fresh cycle (no CCS testing).  My rationale is that I'm not likely to make more than 2 embryos, so I'd probably be doing polar body testing again, which has a much lower chance of success than CCS tested embryos.  Also, if my 2 normal embryos from this cycle fail then it's not a problem with my eggs being chromosomally abnormal.  The issue would most likely be that my eggs just aren't robust enough to survive, in which case I think a fresh transfer would do the least damage to them.  Lastly, I just can't bear the thought of waiting again for test results, and then waiting to do the FET - it just drags the whole process out, and I'm not getting any younger.

If that fails, I told him I would like to move onto donor eggs.  And to my surprise and delight, H told me that not only was he comfortable trying one more time with my eggs, he would also be comfortable moving to donor eggs if we had to.  It's not a decision he would make on his own (he'd be happy without kids), but if it was really important to my happiness he'd be up for it.  He says he does believe that once the baby arrived he would be thrilled.

I was so grateful and relieved to hear him say this - have I mentioned how much I love this guy?  It takes a certain amount of pressure off me mentally to know that this is still an option.  I don't want to have to go there, but at least I know I can if I need to.  Whew.

I have set up a contingency appointment with Dr. S the day after my beta so that if it's negative I can go straight into priming for the next cycle.  I don't want a month of down-time in between, it will just drive me nuts.  I think now I've done all I can do, so I will spend the rest of this month just trying to keep myself calm and sane.

Time is passing slowly but surely over here.  I took my last BCP today, and am on Day 5 of Lupron.  I've noticed that I haven't been sleeping very well the last week or so - don't know if it's just increased anxiety or if the Lupron is doing it to me.  I'm going to try to go to bed early tonight and get a good night's sleep.

February is going to be a big month for many of us cycling at C.CRM.  I am really bummed that I'm somehow missing ALL of you by a week or so, but at least I'll have some online cycling buddies!

12 comments:

  1. Sounds like you guys have a plan that you're both comfortable with - that's great! Wishing you all the best with your FET - I so hope this works out for you! So sad we miss each other in Denver :(

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  2. Don't you love it when they agree? That's the best!! :-) I love mine too. BUT I am really hoping it will work for you this time, it's going to be a really exciting month for a lot of us. How old are you, if I may ask?

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  3. Really really hope this FET works, so you don't have to have any contingency plans, but it's good to put your mind at ease. Glad that you and your husband are on the same page. He sounds like a very sweet guy.
    Hopefully you will get your period quickly and can be done with the lupron as soon as possible. That stuff makes you feel like crap. February is just around the corner!

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  4. That's great that he is open to DE. Admittedly, it is more me than my DH that is hesitant to use DE. However, the more DE ladies that I get to know, the more I warm up to the idea! I'm just glad it is an option, and that we know we can be parents one way or another. Hope this is the cycle that leads you to motherhood though :)

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  5. Your husband sounds like a keeper :) It so nice to have a partner who is understanding and agreeable to different options! I was so scared to talk to my husband about using donor eggs & he was a total champ. It made the whole situation so much less stressful. I hope this cycle works, but it sure is nice to have plan B! Good luck this cycle!

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  6. Oh yeah, that Shiva can just fold in half flat. I'll never be near that.

    It sounds like you have a good plan, but I'm hoping it gets totally thwarted by a giant positive. It is good to know you have the support in house however. Sending lots of luck your way.

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  7. Good luck with the FET! 1st IVF is likely next step for me so I am trying to learn as much from you lovely ladies as possbile. Love to know how the meditations work for you. Looking forward to following your journey.

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  8. It's nice to have a Plan B, I sure hope you don't have to use it though and this FET works for you! I know we had a plan b to use DS if this didn't work for us. Best Wishes!

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  9. I'm really glad that you have a Plan B. That always helped me and gave me something to fall back on anytime I started to panic.

    I'm also really glad that the both of you seem to be on the same page. It helps so much to have that support and partnership.

    I'll be thinking of you and hoping and praying that this is it!!

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  10. it is nice to have a back up and I love that both of you are on the same page. I do hope though you wont need plan B because plan a is working just fine. x

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  11. Back up plans rule!! So glad you and DH are on the same page. Certainly makes the process that much easier. Hang on tight to that dream Newbie...keep truckin' along. Somethings got to give sooner or later...

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  12. Having a back up plan that both you and your husband are ok with is wonderful! Hopefully you won't need it, though. :-) I wish you nothing but success and happiness and a great outcome from you FET! Looking forward to reading more.

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