Ladies, thank you for all of the encouraging words yesterday. I would be lying if I said that I wasn't still concerned about the lack of cramping, but rationally I know it's silly to think it means anything one way or another.
It's 5dp3dt, and I'm feeling fairly crummy. Not physically so much as emotionally. It's purely hormone related. I was already feeling quite emotional going into the FET with the estrogen patches & Lupron. Now after being on 4 patches every other day for a while I've reached a whole new level of hormonal craziness. I literally feel like I could cry every second. I tear up at nothing 5 times a day. And I am not a crier, so this is totally bizarre behavior for me!
I am thinking of trying to have a big cry every morning before I start my day like the Holly Hunter character in "Broadcast News" (have you ever seen that movie? - it's utterly fantastic.) I think if I could do that it would tide me over until at least the evening...food for thought.
A couple of you have asked me about my beta date and if I plan to POAS. Beta is Monday, Feb 27th - a week from now. I will most definitely POAS at some point because I want to be prepared. But I'd like to wait as long as possible so I don't drive myself too crazy. Having said that, I make no promises given my mental/emotional state - I could break down at any time!
But oddly, despite feeling incredibly emotional I don't feel anxious. I don't have that pace-around-the-room-freaking-out kind of energy that I've had in the past. I just feel tired and teary and sort of out-of-it.
Just for kicks, here's my daily log of "symptoms":
1) Insomnia - Better now that I am off Medrol. Am sleeping for long chunks but still getting up to pee all the time.
2) Appetite changes - This is a new one. Last couple of days I've found myself not really wanting to eat much during the day, but then waking up in the middle of the night with serious hunger pangs. Last night I had to get up twice to eat something before I could go back to sleep.
3) Cramping - Much less now (as I've said) but still feeling some light, intermittent cramping, particularly at night.
4) Breast tenderness - Very slight, but still there.
Thanks to everyone for their continued support, this is going to be a bloody long week.