I just got word from my nurse that I am cleared to go for the FET - my lining is at 14m and estradiol is 500 (they want to see over 300). Can't believe I'll be leaving on Wednesday for Denver - FINALLY.
I attended a memorial service yesterday for a former work colleague of mine who passed away from a rare form of cancer. It is really a tragedy - she was young (only in her 20s), intelligent, beautiful, and talented - the whole package. I didn't know her super well (although I always liked her) but a friend of mine who was very close to her asked me to attend to support her, as she had been asked by the family to give a tribute. The service was amazing, and I found myself crying through the whole thing. While there would have been some tears regardless, I'm sure the high levels of estrogen didn't help with controlling my emotions. I literally started tearing up when I walked into the room...could *feel* the hormones working.
Anyhow, attending this beautiful service was a reminder of how lucky I am just to be alive and healthy (aside from IF, of course). I want to remember this during the FET to keep it in perspective as much as possible. It won't be easy, but I am going to try - that's all we can do, right?
One thing I am also determined to do is not to put any stock in my 2WW symptoms. I have had every pregnancy symptom in the book on my natural, IUI and IVF cycles and have always been wrong. Also, the estrogen is already giving me cramps, a very heavy/full feeling uterus, and sore nipples. If I didn't know better, I'd think I was pregnant already! I'm sure I won't be able to stop myself from noticing symptoms, but I will know better than to think they mean anything.
I am praying that our flights leave on time and we don't have any weather issues. I am praying that our embryos thaw perfectly and transfer goes smoothly. And most of all, I am praying that this works. Please, oh please, let this work...